It's hard to move on from someone you love. Especially when you think they might change for you. I had to learn this situation the hard way. I fell for this guy face first and I never have felt like this for anyone. It's been four years and I can still tell you how our first kiss felt. Athough this guy is not good for me. He has cheated one me, lied to my faced multiple amount of times and yet I still would take this guy back everytime he asked me too because I thought he would change for me. That's the thing though, people do not change, and nobody who claims to love you is going to hurt you. They don't want to purposely see you in pain and I feel like this guy got a kick out of messing with my heart for these past four years. He still comes to me now and tells me how he is going to change and how he messed up leaving me and blah blah blah. Although this time I see through his lies. I don't give him the time of day anymore. I forgive him for what he has done to me but I won't go back so he can do it to me again.
So how do you get over someone you love you ask? I don't think you ever really do. To this day I still love this guy, but guess what, I love myself more to not put myself back in that dark place again. I don't wanna be lied to and cheated on again and again. It's not fun. I also know that there is someone out there for me that isn't going to do what he did to me. That will most definitely put me first and will do anything just to see me smile. I just have to know that I am worth more than that past relationship and so are you, you might be reading this and is going through something very similar, it gets better, don't go back, because you are beautiful and strong and you don't need anyone to put you down like that. It like a mountain, sometimes you miss and step and you stumble and little, but you have to grab hold of the rock and keep climbing till you get to the top. Maybe I am writing this more for myself than I am for you, just to remind me that I don't deserve that and no matter how many times he tells me I am beautiful and that he messed up and that he is going to change, I know he isn't. I know I need to keep my head up and look forward because I and you deserve better.
So how do you get over someone you love you ask? I don't think you ever really do. To this day I still love this guy, but guess what, I love myself more to not put myself back in that dark place again. I don't wanna be lied to and cheated on again and again. It's not fun. I also know that there is someone out there for me that isn't going to do what he did to me. That will most definitely put me first and will do anything just to see me smile. I just have to know that I am worth more than that past relationship and so are you, you might be reading this and is going through something very similar, it gets better, don't go back, because you are beautiful and strong and you don't need anyone to put you down like that. It like a mountain, sometimes you miss and step and you stumble and little, but you have to grab hold of the rock and keep climbing till you get to the top. Maybe I am writing this more for myself than I am for you, just to remind me that I don't deserve that and no matter how many times he tells me I am beautiful and that he messed up and that he is going to change, I know he isn't. I know I need to keep my head up and look forward because I and you deserve better.