Who is “me”? Who am “I”? Where is the person that I call
myself? I act like I know her but I don’t. I try to be there for everyone and
do everything and I have lost myself in the process. I will be there for
someone no matter how tired or burnt out I am, I will work myself into the dirt
if that means everyone around me will be okay. I try to make everyone happy,
which is impossible, but I try without even realizing that I am trying and
forget what makes me happy along the way. I trick myself into thinking this is
what I want but in reality, it isn’t. I push myself for everyone and end up
having mental breakdown one after the other, not even realizing that it is
because of what I am doing to myself. I forget what I deserve and how I shouldn’t
just be a door mat for people. I forget that at the end of the day I have to
live with my happiness and not everyone else’s. I make excuses for people who
treat me the way that they do because of the situations they are in but does
that mean I deserve to be treated like a door mat? It doesn’t. I do everything that
I can for others and have completely lost who I am. So, who is “me”? I love
with the biggest heart and give all I can for others but who else am I? I don’t
know, even while writing this I still do not know. I know what I am not, I am
not someone else’s door mat and I was not placed here on this earth to be one. I know God has given me a plan he wants me to
carry out and I know that plan is not pushing myself until I break. So, from
this day forward I have promised myself that I will do what makes me happy and take
what I deserve and nothing less. I will find “me” and I will be whoever “me” is.
What I have learned through all of this is that people will do only what they
want. If they want to fight for you, they will do whatever it takes to do so, if
they want to make you happy, they will do whatever it takes to make it happen
and if that person wants to leave, sadly they will no matter what. You cannot put
your happiness on someone else. You are in control of that. I will find “me”
and I will be “me”.
Hey Guys! It has been a while since I have updated my blog with my current household so here it is! This is the Atkins family. They are sisters who are complete opposites but still love each other and their differences. The oldest is Adrianna Atkins. She is dedicated to keeping the beaches of Sulani beautiful and clean.
Her aspiration was Beach Life in which she got the trait Home Turf. She also completed this aspiration and received the trait Laid-Back. Adrianna is also a Child of the Islands, Cheerful and Family Orientated. She is currently in the process of completing the Soulmate aspiration as soon as she finds that someone, lol. Allie on the other hand is completely different. Allie's aspiration is to be a Bestselling Author in which she has the Quick Learner trait. She is on the last tier of her aspiration as well. Allie is a Cat Lover, a Bookworm and Good. She also does Freelance work on the side to help out with whatever finances are not covered from her books and her sister's job.
Allie loves to garden but that is the only outdoor activity she likes to do. The rest of her free time she likes to watch scary movies and read books. Adrianna loves to be outside and on the beach. These two sisters are very different but they love each other very much. I do not have much of a story for them as I am just playing and seeing what comes along. I cannot wait to see what these two have in store for them!
